As you may know, I’m all about the glow… And sparkles, and sequins... But today I wanted to talk about where it all begins: inner-glow. I know it sounds campy, but I want to shine from the inside out. But you see, my self-critic is loud, my anxiety is high, and as a perfectionist, nothing is ever “enough”. So how do you manage to emanate figurative sparkles when you don’t always feel like Beyonce?
The thing is, I’m much more than my external achievements, appearance, and circumstances. I’m coming to believe that I’m an inherently valuable person, and that I can respect and believe in myself apart from these external things or others’ opinions. I’m learning to let go of worrying because of undue feelings of guilt. I can replace worrying with constructive action. In fact, speaking of guilt, I’m trying to let go of guilt when I can’t fulfill others’ expectations, as well.
I’m even nervous to type this owing to my self-critic being mean, but I do feel that my ideas are worthwhile, and I’m working to uncover who I truly am through them. I’m learning to be myself around others, as that is taking care of my own need of staying true to myself. But this is hard, and I’m accepting the natural ups and downs of life.
I deserve good things in life as much as anyone else, and am open to discovering new meaning in life. I’m doing this through setting my own priorities and making time for what is important. I am responsible and in control of my life, and strive to be capable, brave, and relaxed.